Just wait there! Should only take me an hour. I know, I feel terrible. Please don’t be mad. Call me back, okay?” If only he’d listened to me and stayed with his friends. If only he didn’t forget about me in the first place.
If only he just this once let me be upset instead of always trying to fix things, no one would be blaming me for what happened. I wouldn’t be blaming me. I play the voice mail a few more times before I delete everything. Then I climb out of bed and start upending drawers, looking for anything that was Sam’s or reminds me of him.